Sunday, February 10, 2013

mood rate: ****_

The yearly affair has arrived.
Its Chinese New Year again.
Since my relatives are either all gathered at one place,
Or are all overseas. I'm here blogging all over again.
This would give you hint on how freaking bored i am now.
So if you are interested yo date me out. Prepare to wear a mask.

LOL

Yes, I'm sick again for the 2nd consec CNY.
This time, my runny nose is sprinting away.
Didn't manage to catch it back in time.

Anyway, just to keep myself reminded that it's CNY.
Coz i oredy told you that i'm realli realli bored.
I invested on how to make myself LOOK and FEEL oriental on this occasion.

So this is how i look last year.
Last year was the Maxi year, and almost everyone is clad in Maxi.

nah~

I wanna look DIFFERENT.
so i chose to wear a qipao!

This year, i decided to go for the longer Cheong Sam coz i knew the Cheong Sam hype is back.
And of course i didn't wanna look mediocre.
So I chose a HOT RED HIGH SLIT one.
Stashed in a super HIGH KILLER HEELS.

Thats the look I'm gonna achieve this year. Judge for yourself!

Please dun say i look like some waitress or Chun Li.
Coz i didn't wear sneakers ma.

And i didn't choose BLUE LEH!!!
Mind you, mind is messy bun ok!!
not the cloth covered one..

 NAH!!! Chun Li's FOTO!!!! BLUE one oso haf..
White one oso haf.

But there's not red baju yet..
so if ever it happens..
Chun Li has juz stolen my copyright. boo*

As for the makeup wise.
This is my scary foto.

I decided to youtube all the oriental face I combined all my favourite makeup tips to come up with my own.

This is how bubble tea makers came out with better ideas.
I applied the same concept ma..

 Nah show you again my pretty face.

This year, i decided to give my nails a break from all the hyperactive colours and diamonates.
I named this, FAIRY DUST.


All this crap that i'm showering you now is just outta my boredoom.
Its normal that i go on and on blabbering nonsense all the time.
And so~~~
Thats all for todae.

"quoted from salyeiha: A girl without her Cheong Sam on CNY is like celebrating Hari Raya without the Baju Kurung."

I like that line!

Chaox!''

Thursday, January 24, 2013

mood rate: ***_ _

Nursing as my career have never failed to changed me into a total different person.
Not just for the better but it has pulled my body into a different zone, a different biological clock.
So much so that i lose my social life and i find myself chasing after time.

Time has been a huge factor that i knew would sooner or later come in between relationships.
Relationship amongst friends, between lovers, even amongst family.

Entitlement to an off day sometimes speaks in the mind telling my body.
"hey germain, it's time to rest. Take this entitlement to rest well"

But once the fone starts ringing and its the bestie that you haven met for months,
You would dump every opportunity to slp juz to catch up.
Once your mom verbalised that she haven been able to have some quality time spend at coffee bean,
you tot, maybe i shld realli spend some time with my family.
On top of which you have some relationship commitments that you would wanna address.

A whole load of commitments, there goes my sleep again.

Sometimes, after a long week at work slogging from time to time, the slp that i need, priceless.
To the extend that it seems like i'm lifeless motionless, dead on my bed.

Many have asked me to make a serious comparison between a general ward's workload and ICU/HD.
I would answer you now.

Being in the general ward means that most situation would be predictable.
Which means that apart from the usual routine, Toilet bath, sponging, medication rounds, report writing, den the cycle goes one.
Probably if luck is not on your side, you may be engage in some adrenalin rushing resus.
And thats about all that is going on.
Thats the point i'm pushing across, after work, i would enjoy myself, not even bothered abt whats going on in the ward.
And moreover, most of the stuffs are mapped out. Discharged plans in particular.

In ICU/HD,
Because they are here for a reason.
And reason being their detiorating conditon.
They are screaming for us to help them.
And them being here, helpless and unable to be managed at a GW level has made them vulnerable in all aspect.
Which is why i'm always so drained after work.
I felt that i've used up so much of my energy.
In comparison to the GW where we use up all our bull force to lift and transfer 12 patients,
i used the exact same amount of mental strength predicting the 'WHAT IFs' for only 3 patients.
What if i gif this drug will it affect this this this?
What if i hold off this drug, does it necessarily mean success?
And most of the time, it's a lose lose situation where you haf to weigh the pros and cons.

An immediate attention to be given.
Draining, draining everything.

Which is why nowadays,
I indulge in zone out period where i going to work alone on train or bus rides.
Listening to the favourite originals written a week ago, still fresh on the list.
Engaging in my little self achievements.
Mapping out the possibilities that would happen during the impending shift.
Setting a benchmark of how the shift would be like.
That is very impt to me coz of the unpredictablility working in ICU/HD.
This would tell me if my shift was good or bad.

If it's good, probably, a pat on the back, a smile on my face.
If it turned out bad, a sweet treat, a nice movie would do the job.

This is how my life is.
As for now, it's back to chasing Time Train wishing that it would multiply in 10.

Thursday, August 09, 2012

I woke up with this sudden gushing arrays of emotions that swirls n engulfs me in whole.
In simple terms, I'm emolicious max now.

Thursday, July 26, 2012

mood rate: **_ _ _

The mood of mine has recently been low.
But of course i believe tings will get betta when i hit the rock bottom.
It will bounce off the shit and get me on the right track.

How should i start?

I guess i am just not cut up enuf for HD pace.
Prolly ppl would comfort me by saying that it takes time for me to learn and move on with HD together.
I on the other hand felt that i am always not good enuf.
Do not get all fussy abt this shit that i am toking now.
Coz i do enjoy the life here toking crap wif my collegues.
I always do, coz this is the outlet for mi to laugh at myself and others.
But there's always a twist to it.

There are always bad eggs amongst the bundle of joy.
If you are jealous of me, hates me, or despise mi, den shoot me now.
Coz i have thought thru carefully...
My objectives here is to boost the morale in this ward.
Coz i do agree that this ward as compared to my previous noisy parties is far too flat.

So many lil group n tiny talks.
I felt what everyone needs is to stand strong together to gif us the power and strength to fight all bullshit.
We need to stick together in order to protect ourselves from intruders.
Y wouldn't ppl understand?
nvm.. maybe its juz fate for me to bring everyone closer so that 6C will always be strong n protected, resilient and stays happy this way.
Thus, if i were to be in the governence council i would speak nothing but the truth.
And the truth is being united.

The sad ting about nursing is that it has too many unhappy ppl who never gets contented.
And this is called the harsh environment.
N there u go.. THE UGLY TRUTH ABT NURSING.

The one ting tt is and will always be the cause of un-united ppl is POLITICS.
So fuck with the politics lah!
Everyday come to work, every mth take $$ go hm rest lah!
seebei got a lot of time to play politics sumore?
Seriously? r u outta ya mind?!!!

wad drives me now thus far is the colleagues who confide and trusted mi.
I thank you for being there when i needed you.
I treat everyone equally, therefore, i will help everyone equally.
Coz i am one dumb bitch who is contented wif bringing home $$ every mth n lead n quiet lifestyle.
Thus, i am not a worth any piece of energy to backstab.
So thank you very much.

The other ting that keeps me alive n i promised that i will blog abt it...
NURSING JAMZ...
NJ is by far the most adorable bunch of kids that never fails to lighten my mood n keep mi sane.

Making music, is one of those shit tt i indulge myself in and had nv stopped running from.
It has been running in my blood with the great company!
For this uptight performance.
we stretched our limits to the maximum and it has been going on track.
I hope that we delivers nothing but the best on 31/7 and 1/8.

For TTSH staffs! please do come and support us wif colourful banners! haha!
enuf of rantings..
Keeping my comments to myself..

Signing out is me..
Gems..

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

mood rate***_ _

This post which i know will kill the entire world would probably be a hit.
I'm not posting tis coz i tink i will be as famous as xiaxue.
But i'm posting tis coz i am realli sick n tired.

i started my path as a clinic assistant in a private clinic
(names are kept in sealed envelopes, unless u seebei stalker me)
frankly, i enjoyed every moment i had in the clinic!
i had no worries abt red tapes n politics.
Life was close to PERFECT until my punkass gt lil itchy n decided that i should further my studies n start afresh working in hosps instead.

however, increasing the stakes is juz SUICIDE!!!!
i dragged myself thru poly.
claimed tt i love polydays... but actually its more of polyDAZE..
started working in a general ward.

where HUMANS exsist..
tormenting bullshits flew frm mouths abt craps
n soon...
i am lyk a slutty bitch trying to step into an angelic world.
excuse me???
juz coz u r acting sister doesnt gif u the fucking permission to backstab mi rite in my throat!
thus... the story goes on n on until the day i broke free.

while i'm snuggling in my comfort zone.
its time again to move on.
took my adv dip n gt transferred to another unit

there again..
shit juz goes in a cycle..
tts y cantonese saying goes..
sek see orh fan...
(eat shit pass rice)

I am nt here to criticise life as a nurse.
I am just critising LIFE WITH NURSES..

Y is the environment so unconducive tt ppl dun hang out together n have fun?
Or is it juz me?
if it is juz me.. y wud my frenz wanna quit?

think abt it~~~

Friday, April 20, 2012

mood rate: *****

i'm seebei happie coz the first week of clinical attachments are over.

Friday, April 06, 2012

mood rate: ***_ _

Eversince I stepped out into the relationship,
My world revolves around my friends, family and Boyfie.
I stayed at home more often and schedule became less of clubbing, pubbing and singing.
ok, maybe the singing still persist. =D

I used to have my schedules all packed up.
Dating all the loveable girlfriends out, hanging out till wee hours.
Drinking till i'm dead drunk, lay flat on the bed with my head spinning profusely.
Vomitting all the way home.

But i've stopped for almost 1 and a half years.
HAHA! good accomplishments right?
coz i've got boyfie who teaches me the value of family.

I spend more time with my family, understanding my brother and of course i've got extended family who is Boyfie's family!
I indulge in my love life, planning for our future.
Started to move on, into the thrifty side of saving to buy a house, to raise a child and turning into an auntie.

Buddy and i used to say we are bitches whom nobody would ever wanna marry.
And the greatest blessing is that we are happily attached with the one that will take us through the next journey of our lives.
The additional part of me is....
I always look for tings value for money, no more the old me with the mindset:
"I see, I want, I buy coz i got income"
Now i have to tink about the splitting the burden with hubx*

So why am I alll so emoliciously writing tis crap?

Coz Boyfie is going for RESERVIST!

Neh Neh! no wonder he got such great encouragement for me to buy a TV!
coz he wan mi to stay at home lah! must be one. LOL

so i'm calling out to those who have got nothing to do and would wanna date this oso nothing to do girl out.
HAHAHAHHAHAHHA! call hotline (you already got my number wad!!)