Thursday, June 29, 2006

Friends are like an extension of family...
some friends are like rain which comes and go,
some are like air which constantly stays around although you may not even notice,
some are like the sun,
they gives you warm and they will be your lucky star always shinning.
some are like snow, looks pure n sweet but chills might just be the next thing you noe...

i haf a grp of friends which i think have proven to be the calm air always hanging around...
we've pulled thru stuffs together and made it thru...
we've proven to be the besties best four whom understand each other even w/o speaking...
we lend a helping hand during our fall...
we shine a torch during the darkest moments of our life...
we slog like beggers during exams but we stick together...
dear pals, i appreciated it and i hope we will continue to stick together...
i'll prove tt we can be the besties best in life...

The final conclusion of these ppl is partly due to another person...
She caused the greatest misery one could haf ever inflicted,
she wrote a whole chunk of diary which i felt realli offended...
she is realli smart in twisting n turning to wriggle outta her problem...
She is the cause of her downfall(nobody wans her in their grp)
but she is the effect and rise of besties best! (i haf to tkns you anyway)

She one which makes mi realise tt there are lots more hu cares like PJ...
the besties best who always stick together, (sha2,win, mx n MI!)
the mother of our nature fives support during storms (jolthi),
i respect you n you'll always be the one we lurve...
the rest, tkns for your support (like concert) haha!
but the sentimental value of this feeling will nv be able to express...

lurve you pals! muackx!

Dinex, glynnis, we knew each other since the day we were borned?
yupx! tt's how forever3 is form...
the next generation depends on us remember? haha!
lurve ya too!

and to those long lost friends, stay in touch ya? heehee!

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

different faces tell different stories...
it may be sad or happie, cute or simply irresistably adorable!
it speaks i thousand languages...
even though i dun noe tt person...
the face itself can juz tell you if he's realli unhappie...

love is juz like these faces...
but love is all about feelings...
i can feel if he doesn't love mi...
i can feel the presence even if he is not there,
i can feel loneliness w/o a certain person which is mean to be in your life.
feeling is subjective though...
although you can feela person, that doesn't means you can understand him/her...
ppl believe in 'mind reading'...
ppl believe in hz well they noe a person can signifies hz much you understand them...
i personally feel that although i realli noe the person,
that doesn't mean i understand the person...
sometimes, as time goes by, you will understand sth which i understand...
sth unexplainable... sth which proves my point tt
thoughg you know the person so well, thing can go terribly wrong coz you dun understand tt person... trust me, i noe...

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

sob sob...
my life is crap!!!
august september october all burnt!!! attachment!!!! haiz...
on the consolation, i gt to see baby n siao ppl! haha... apart frm the norm... haiz... zZz...

Saturday, June 17, 2006

recently watched this HK serials called " ___fa3 dai4 yan2 ren2" it's about lawyers and how they actually keep their reputation. but in it, i don't focus much on the lawyer part and how they speak but more on their life experiences and how they cope...
there are many stories which implicits life hurdles which most of us come across... in y nx few bloggies, i'll try to post some of those i find it's useful...

(piggybank story)
there are two sisters which needed piggybanks to save their money.
their parents noted, bought them two piggybanks, a plain w/o design and the other nice and exquisite one.
few days passed, very soon, the nice piggy bank was filled with plenty of money and broken while the plain one was left there w/o a single cent in it...
few years passed, no one has ever predicted that the plain piggybank became an antique.

although you guys may feel that this is just an oridnary stury of a piggybank, but i feel that in life, many a time, you have to choose between two very difficult choice.
the nice and exquisite piggybank might just refer to fame and money.
while the plain one might just be a simple lifestyle with a happie and healthy family.
to me, the most important thing in my life although (mp3 and $) but in a life and death situation i rather not have those but just to be with my love ones till the last breath...
life is about feeling and emotion, both of these teaches you how to react to situation and make a correct decision.

i feel sorry for tt time when i made her drop tears,
but at the same time, i felt that for the days which i treated her well,
i weren't rewarded and i understood hz she felt abt mi (library incident)
she was just using mi...
when things happen, she weren't there to pull it through together,
but rather, to put blame on others...
it's unfair! it's mean!
write a diary of mi? man! do you need an autograph too?

Thursday, June 15, 2006

life goes on like a flimstrip...
it goes on n on n on...
like how the waves in the sea nv fails to crash...
how the sun n rain nv fails to appear...
these are my pals... mazuin n me...
my green slippers(by popular demand)
yee tung, sophian, hasli n mi wif an ancient pose...
yee tung n mi...
mi n sheila and last me n my bro at swensens... haiz... life goes on, and if storm breaks, bring it on... face it, be strong...

lurve myself...

Sunday, June 11, 2006

today is sianx dae...
woke up in the morning to go NTC for tis chinese taipei exchange programme... and in the end, my bro din get to fight... poor guy... all he did was to sit there wif samuel, jonathan and halim to soak his whole gee wif sweat... crazy ppl... anyway tt's all...

but one thing tt is hogging my mind and doesn't seem to go away is tt freaking diary... wad the hell? i'm spyed!!! haiz... the thought of it realli makes mi sick to the stomach... she wrote the diary of my movements! even my mum doesn't do tt! haiz.. it's getting more difficult for mi to forget the incident in the library after tis incident coz the more stuffs you try to instigate or spy, the more difficult it is for mi to forgive you... coz the words which comes outta your mouth hurts deeper then pacific ocean!!! i wun wan the same ting which you ppl like to quote: sometimes words which comes out from 'mothers'' mouth don mean to hurt, it's the way they put it tt hurts so much... don mind...

crap! tt's the last ting i believe! everyone has emotions... animals have, whats more human! i'm sry to say... if it's so hard to please someone, i rather not have tt someone as a fren... we'll juz stay as aquiantance or project grpmates...

Friday, June 09, 2006

Last nite my mum went out to sum fishing village restaraunt to haf nice dinner (some1 buy her tt) while i slag @ home with daddy n bro (he has been realli nice these days) eating Jalan Kayu's nasi brayani (izzit spelled lyk tt maz? my malay phonix is bad u noe?)...

Thoughts abt noon ran thru my mind...
She cried... (crocodile tears?)
i wonder... hhhmmm???...
i realli din mean to be rude...
i was realli pissed n frustrated by the damn diary...
i haf mine too (10 WHYS)
1.why do you haf to spy on me?
(unexplained)
2.why do you haf to be so damn sensitive?
(unexplained)
3.why you force yourself into tis state?
(i can't accept the fact)
4.why muz i stay away frm you?
(i din wan trouble)
5.why can't i juz be real?
(you are too sensitive to accept it)
6.why muz you interpret stuffs which are not true?
(unexplained)
7.why muz you say for the sake of saying?
(unexplained)
8.why muz you keep using (a 30yrs old adult, mother of three)?
(it makes mi sick and it amplifyes the child in mi)
9.why muz you keep using lim siew hong n failing of project to bring tings up?
(plain childish)
10.why cant you initiate stuffs?
(simple! coz you dun wanna look s if you r the bad guy!i'm nt stupid either)

you say it's me, i say it's you...
you say it's cultural diff, i say it's age diff...
you say it's rude, i say i'm pissed...
you say it's hatred, i say it's respect...
tis is an issue, so admit it!

Thursday, June 08, 2006

sumthing happened... haha!
What a joke!
she wanted to tok abt ytd...

YTD RECAP:
ytd mi sha2 n awin went to atrium to shop shop! shopping spree!!!
i lurve the bikinis! but no padding i dun like!
wad happen was tt i went to the atrium's (near to SBM escalator) stall to see the bikini
so happen i din like it and so i drag awin along to go see bikini at the other stall while sha2 is bz tokin to Hema (if it's spelled like tt)

she interpret as:
"they saw mi but germain drag awin along... she din like mi but she need nt drag kapisha and awin along, tell germain tt if she's not happie cum tel mi straight in the face, need not beat about the bush!"

my version:
"i haf nothing against her! my interpretation is tt i wil stay a lil' distant frm her coz wound takes time to heal and i do not wan stuffs to blow up again even b'coz of the slightest breeze."

So eventually she called kapisha (even though she wasn't involved) told her the whole story! and then! asked kapisha to convey it to mi, and we met up outside K2 after break. she quoted that she was wanting to talk all along but i rushed off after the 2056lecture. she said that i didn't prioritise this issue and she thus felt tt i think this matter is not important. for mi i too think tt she felt tt this matter is not important coz she added tt she didn't tell mi straight coz she didn't haf my number... so the Q is: If she thinks this issue is important, is it very hard to take my number frm any1? She even took out a 'diary of my movements! man! i'm spyed and i dun even noe... even my mum nv write a diary os my whereabouts coz i tink if she did, her diary will be never ending... (aawww... i lurve my mum!!!!) actually i'm not tt angry but after tt freaking dairy, i was so (shocked oredy...) and thus my blood begin to boil and i blew my cool... sry! but i want to say, i realli can't understand you and i (hope) we can b like b4? but i tink i'll juz stay (away) frm you except for projects... coz i can't stand sensitivity! and if i act as though nothing happen? i guess it is juz too FAKE and i dun do FAKE stuffs... i'm real... tt's me! TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT....

in conclusion: everything boils down to how she interpret things applying her own perception of stuffs w/o even finding out the truth, she concludes... e.g: germain is not happie wif mi, germain is giving me a sharp look... when as a matter of fact i might not even see her and i was looking elsewhere... haiz... i juz can't explain sensitivity...

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

these are the larger version babes!

ytd awin mi n sha2 went to tampines for shopping of sandles.. but in the end we were traped in tis shop b'coz the assessories were so cute! haha! sha2 esp will be like 'oh! awin/mainx you see!!! tis is so CUTE!!!!, should i buy????but i like it!!!!' oh man.. sha2 is gg crazy.. so in the end i onli bought tis apple green striking slippers and nothing else.. sha2 gave mi tis nail art stickers which is so so cute... and i have it all ova my finger till my dad was gg "you crazy fellow... stick flowers(actually it is butterflies) all ova your fingers... haha! i juz kept quiet... haiz.. tt mi, the vain vain vain me.. haha! anyway i enjoyed the outing ytd and was realli happie wif the neoprints we taken... i still rem awin went to the top most floor in TM and she was lyk... "they renovated the arcade(time-zone) and nw the neoprint shop is gone" den sha2 n i were gg "haha!lost!" den in the end we realise it was the wrong level... and awin ask us to look out for preety in tokyo? i tink tt's the name.. haha! i lurve you guys... go out on hols again okie? cya!


*dedicated photos for you guys..." tata! -chaox-
<-- sha2 makeup 4mi...

kapisha keeps complaining that i didn't post her pics in my blog so here i am posting okie? haiyo.. the pics in the bubble thoughts is taken when px is doing her presentation, haha... she look realli pretty in dress.. nice dance! gd job! tata!
*jothi cannot use hp in class ar?*

-chaox-

Monday, June 05, 2006

i think YT will lurve it man! juz for you!!!!
*muackx*

last nite i had tis weird dream... trust mi, it's realli weird?

lights thru a pinhole...
shining brightly...
leads me thry a dark tunnel...
i realise...
it's my pathway...
a pathway tt leads mi to wad fate has encrusted...
slightly i went along,
w/o knowing where it'll lead mi to...
the onli ting i know is tt it'll lead mi to a line i appreciate,
but what happens after tt is never found...

after this freaky dream, i realise i'm not taking things seriously, i'm doing stuffs which suits my mood that day... it's freaky... but it's true... tt's life... and learn how to appreciate it...

Saturday, June 03, 2006

patricia
chun en
ivy (middle)

i've been missing my pals lately... haiz... they haf gone missing... i'm lyk staying in contact wif them thru tis screen called the monitor... and pals call mi k? miss ya guys...

After finishing wif my long lost palz i'm gonna say my tkns'.. to mazuin, sha2 for waiting... i'm deeply touched by the sincere gesture... heehee... *muackx* tkns so much for your moral support even though you guys were like "yeah! it's such a relieve to be sitting here when i've finished our prac assessment"... and i was like "oh shit! i dun even noe wad case scenario i'll be getting and who will i get?" so nervous... but in the end i gt NGT insertion and gastric aspiration... and the 'head' who took rushdiah? man! i felt like i was interrogated by her! Qs after Qs and i realli dunno wad ans to gif... but... due to my high intellectual level, i manage to ans quite a no. of it, (action onli) and managed to pass... yeah!!!! haha! so glad! onli crazy ppl will ask mi to ask pt for the name like "are you joy wong?" haiz... i mean you haf to ask sth like "may i haf your name?" haiz.. ppl are juz tt crazy! anyway it's such a relieve to pass? and i gt lotsa ticks! yeah! it's a gd sign okie? so tt nite of singapore idol, mr bean and spongebob didn't kill! but bio prac cuming up! gd luck guys!

Friday, June 02, 2006

haix...
today is my prac exams! i'm like so freaking scared... yeep! i hope i dun get blodder w/o lo... like so diff!

haha!
we(sha2 n i) found out this secret of maziah haha! and guess wad? she juz refuse to tell us the name of the guy and all we noe is 'oh so tall, opening a can of soft drink' that's all... haiz... so diff to understand this gal ar... she's like so quiet n reserved but in contrast she plays CS n stuffs like tt... and she LIKES THIS GUY!!!!!!!!! amazing! it's just like spongebob can fly! haiz.. anyway we're so digging deeper.. and i shall wait at the library toilet on fri at 2(info from PJ) haha! dunno whether confirm a not.. and wad's his name again? haiz... so diff! anyway gd luck peeps for those hu are taking assessment soon.. tata!

Thursday, June 01, 2006

rEtRo haIr man!
haha.. you guys muz be tinking i'm crazy! haha! we gt this presentation on monday and guess wad? i'm not the lead actress and tt's gd coz we're doing on mental health, schizophrenia patient haha! this is the WIG for your information! haha! it's like so retro, and the lead 'actress' is sophian, wif makeup, he's like so PREETtyYyy! haha! den we put makeup on 'her' haha! so funny! anyway, after i went home, i did a new pedicure... dunno man, crazy abt pedicure these days.

remember the previous post, when i told you guys about 'her' and mi tingy, i hope it's solved, but u noe, i hope it's not fake yeah? yupx!