Tuesday, July 25, 2006

first day of attachment was crap...
at first i tot coz we din take report so nurul n i were like lost ducks...

but the next day, i was a blur sotong...
even i after i took the report, i was still blur like sotong...
coz the used abbrevations..I DUN UNDERSTAND!!!
*sob sob*
haiz...but as the day goes by, i'm getting used to it..
the scary new environment...
on the bright side...
i'm in A side +++ B1 side...
so i'm airconed!!!haha! cooling! phew!

but poor elaine...
she's stucked in 63 'sufferring'her first experience in males ward..
for mi, i prefer to be in the males ward...
coz i find tt males are not so to the soft side...
females are less tolerated to pain...
and they'll cry and stuffs...
which i'll totally freak out when they start crying and i realli dunno wad to do...
all i noe is therapeutic touch...
and at the most i'll ask... are you okie?
which obviously the ans is no lo...
it's so lame to ask are you okie or is everything alrite?
and worst still,if you ask... why are you crying?
then they will start crying more...
on the other hand...males will more 'act macho' kind...
their pain thresh hold is higher...
therefore, they will call onli if they cannot tahan...
moreover, i urinal is easier to serve than a bedpan...
*smlies* heehee...
but on a whole, i realli dun mind working in any gender's room...
coz if your communication skills are good,it's kinda easy to handle them...
especially when you noe them, build a bond with them...
allowing trust to take place...
then... TNPR is the magic of nursing...

happie attaching peeps!
learn to enjoy yeah?
i've learn to tok to pass my time...
heehee... TNPR okie?

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it's always super stress when exams are cumin...
yeepx... especially when it comes after att...haiz...
i hate exams... but no choice!
whenever i tink abt att, fri became far away...
but fri was a happi day..
coz it's racial harmony day!

guess wad?my crazy classmates wore their ethic costumes to sch!
so funny... we took pictures then!
when everyone was in the lec theatre...
we happily took photos...
june muz be like tinking wad the hell these ppl are doin...
haha... but it is realli fun when you haf crazy classmates...

after the 'revision' lec, i met awin to go for hasli's play...
it's an arts play, i call it...
titled: light of the south...
i would classify it under an emotional play...
it eplicits life during jap occupation...
it's out of the 'normal' play stagearts often offer...
it touches the inner part of the heart producing a bittersweet feeling...
*claps* nice work director and scriptwriter!

hasli is the right hand man of the 'captain' of the operation...
although it was suppose to e a realli touching and serious play,
hasli always gimme tt comical face,
so i couldn't stop laughing...
but i swear tt it's a nice play k!
i sort of like the jap leader's accent...
he has tis eurasian kinda feeling tt didn't sound fake...
i kinda like it... heehee...

after the play critics...
let mi share tis tinnee weeny secret with you guys...first...
we were at the canteen wif hasli n sophian...
den hasli asked:hey you guys wanna cum watch my play on blah blah blah blah...
immediately sha2's trademark came out: "can lah can..."
den sophian was like.. okie sure!
awin went "the thing is tt if sha2 sha2 go den i dun mind going..."
for mx it'll be impossible to gt her to go...
for mi, since there're ppl gg i decided to go...
but on the day itself,it was left wif onli mi n awin lo!!!!
although the play was enjoyable,
everytime when there're parts which needed sum kinda sound effects...
like e.g: whao! woohoo!! wow! i felt so pai sei to 'go' wif the crowd!
coz i dunno them...everyone came wif bunch of frenz...
we were like 2stupid idiots sitting right at the corner lo!
anyway.. HASLI you've gotta tkn us for coming (which he did)
(hu noes where they went)...
coz your frenz took the tickets and fled to batam!
awin wanted mi to add tis: you lied abt the refreshments part!

i've gt no time to blog...
so i'll update my entries one shot by the dates as the title...

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Have you guys ever thought about how child frm broken families live?
How the society actually rejects them...
How they are often the cast aways...
How they are disliked...
How they are often different in many ways..
How they are exposed to verbal abuse...
How they will be alienated...
How they are traumatised whenever they see happie familes...

however, i feel that children from broken families are the strongest!
i feel that they are the brave lots...
i know of this fren from a broken family...
she is very intelligent but an introvert...
in class, she always keeps to herself...
i know her during primary school...
at that time, there was this programme called pre-primary?
yupx... and during lunch time, we have our lunch together,
and then, there will be this 'rest' time when we actually bring blankets,
place it on the floor and cuddle together with our frens...

During tt time, we will always be fighting to sleep beside hu and all those childish nonsense,but she is different...
she wants to sleep as far as possible...
she was always alone...as usual, my class boys will go...
"action lah... sleep alone, scared ppl steal your knowledge from your brains rite?"
i was realli naive so i accepted the 'reason' as it is...
(i was very young! tt's y... i regretted my actions though...)
she was always verbally bullied by the boys...
thinking back, i always remember seeing her envy expressions whenever sch's over,
our parents will come pick the child up, hug hug kiss kiss and all tt kinda mushy stuffs...
for her it's onli her nanny... she and her nanny...

thru the years in primary school and the contact i haf with her till now,
i realise her mum was physically abused by the father when she was young...
her father was actually a gangster...
when she was young, she was left alone in the hse...
tt was how she learn how to cook but of course with all the burns and scars on her hands..
when her parents came home, they would quarrel...and whenever her father was drunk or needed money, he would bash her mum up...
she live in a fearful environment which causes fear of rejection...
soon, her father became too violent to be toleratedthus, her mum sent her to a nanny
(those women hu dun gt married)
she guess the relationship was a shortgun one...
but hu am i to comment on this? she might be a fan of my blog!

few years l8r, her parents divorced...
she was sort of like disowned...
and placed in an orphanage...but out of pity,
her nanny adopted her...(her nanny is a realli nice lady!i met her b4!)
she still calls her nanny (in canto:lou gu por)
it sounds horrible but i dunno y tt's hz she calls her...
few years back, her nanny told her tt her mum was killed in JB...
i was believed tt her dad killed her mum,
but rumours are always lurking like evil...

thru' all of these stormy days, she still stood strong...
she is my bestest fren...
she is source of my strength and the pillar of my weakness...she is tt kinda person hu magnify your strengthsand supress your weakness...
she's like my elder sister...(although she is younger than mi)
i felt tt all tt she went thru made her more matured...
(as compared to mi, erm... duh!)
she is part of the reason i look forward to a nursing career...
deep in mi...i realli wanna help!!!

p.s: hey winnie! be strong!
and i'm glad to haf you as a fren... muackx! lurve you babe!

Sunday, July 23, 2006

"wedding is a one day affair but marriage is a commitment for life"

but both of them arise from a ting called lurve...
Lurve is a subject tt nobody can understand
although some claims tt they do...
personally i feel tt true lurve does exist
but eventually it is still the mutation of a person's personality
that spoils the nuturing of lurve....

i always believe in fairy tale relationship
some prince charming tingy...
tt's lyk so naive n dumb...
there's no such ting...
lurve is sth which needs chemistry, time and effort...
he can be a shy guy sitting at a corner...
admiring you silently...
one day he intends to tok to you
and you realise he is a funny n cute guy...
and you all started to hang out...
soon, you guys became buddies
and finally you all became an item..

How on earth do you noe tt the shy n quiet guy will be your bf?
amazing and unexplainable rite?
tt's wad i'm trying to explain...

worse of all...
lurve is dangerous...
lurve is emotionally exhaustive...
lurve is confusing...
lurve is complicated...
lurve cannot be controlled...
coz it controls you...

therefore, do nt let lurve blind you...
coz when you start to realise the freedom w/o the binding by lurve,
you will regret....
but if you feel free, lurved, secured, sweet and protected... while attached,
he's the one for you...
but on the other hand...
if you haven found one or he's not the one,
there's lots more in life than the past...
and thats FrIenDx n FaMiLy...
=mUaCkx= believe in yourself...

Friday, July 21, 2006

look at those wussy wussy seals! so cute rite? heehee...




these is the crystal berry tt patricia did for mi nice? heehee...

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

this is the update the time when we met lim siew hong...

first muz wait...

and when you cannot wait... take pics of yourself...

if you can't gt your frens to play UNO!!!

den gt some heart attack...

soon... you'll start checking out your eyelashes..

and lastly... do some magic...
coz we realli gt nothin betta to do!
but on the bright side...
we have free MAC!!! haha! i lurve it... tkns!

let you haf a peep wad we do during lecs tuits n clinical... haha!

first it's lec... haiz...

this is mi n PJ

then it's their presentation!

then we saw a ghost... haha! sry mel...

then it's xiaowen's presentation...

yt was totally shocked when she saw sophian's photo... haha!

it's was sianx though...

so sha2 play her fone...as usual...

and sophian act as though he is listening... haha
and tt's all for life of a poly student...

this is mi n pj...
we went to heerens...

ytd when i went hm, my bro was in my room as usual...
normally i would scream at him for playing the ball in my room...
i mean, he has his own room right?
but when i went into my room..
my bro was lyk...
"hey sis, my fren gave mi chewing gum!, i share half half with you okie?"
my heart was lyk melting away...
haiz... why is it so hard to treat my bro betta?
whenever i needed sth, my bro will lyk...
"hey sis, if you need $ i can gif you u noe?"
haiz.. i've never share my money wif him...
but his hard earned incentives was actually willing to spend on mi...
i was so touched... at the same time guilty or treating my bro so badly...
but i treat him nicely at times too you noe...
but tt doesn't overwrite the frequency n intensity of his kindness..
so frm today onwards!
JOKES ASIDE... I'M GONNA TREAT MY BRO BETTA!
i even wrote it down on post stick and stuck it on my wall..
so b4 i could hurt my bro...
it will remind mi so tt in time to cum...
i'll treat my bro nicely naturally! yeah!
i make sure i'll make it a conditioned response! yeah!

haiz... so guilty... tings always has it's diff perspectives...
jus like these...

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

sometimes life is realli borin...
but sometimes life is realli cool..

ytd i went out wif PJ to heerens..
took neos...
i promise i'll post it asap okie?
yupx...
we tok hell lot of nonsense..
haha!
rite PJ? abt the 'he' and the 'she' ?
heehee... tt's was realli fun...

haiz...
atachments and exams are cumin...
so i'll be taking a break from blogging okie?
dun be angry...
i promise i'll be back real soon...
which is if my mum gets a computer...
coz mine is in coma now....

hey frenz...
can you all imagine..
one and a half yr passed...
and we'll be out on clinical real soon..
two more sems to go and tata!
-chaox- i'll miss you guys...
haiz..
life in sch is so short!
i hope i gt longer life in sch...
den can slag n eat potato chips in lecs...
make nonsense stuffs in tuits...
do nonsense when we realli got nothing to do in clinical...

speaking of tt...
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nite class...
as usual, we will be realli hyper...
i reali cannot explain y...
yvonne came..
actually it was suppose to be consolidation..
but we got nothin to consolidate so in the end...
we were given some case scenarios to do AGAIN...
it's the same ting we did like 2 days ago!
we din noe wad to do so we slag...
den we began tokin abt how HL do demo in bio lab...
haha! it wwas so funny...
1st...
loo was like tokin...
den HL can't hear..

so she went closer...
Loo then ask her to climb up the table...

den her butt was lyk facing him..

den he ask her to face in front...
den she was lyk...

sitting on her heels (but he suppose to lyk test the heel reflex)
so funny...

den yt started to show hz sophian did his part...
but it wasn't s funny s the HL's
after tt... we gt nothin to play so we play waxing using...
the best product in the market... MICROPORE TAPE!!!!
haha! cool rite? (erm.. nope...)
we did it for sophian till we realise he's kinda 'allergy' to it...
poor guy... went hm with red arms...
haiz.. nothin to play oredy...
we ended up doing imitation of lecturers...
the dr Loo, cecilia, june, ibrahim and shaun one is so funny...
we were lyk using the metal tray(PC), upsidedown gallipot(mouse), upsidedown kidney dish (keyboard).. gosh! we were like in a mess!
Dr loo was his realli slow mo. trademark plus the 'flip fone' (demo wif aquagel)
cecilia wif her HK accent...
June with her gan jiong style...
ibrahim wif his 'an zhua ar? hahaha'
shaun demonstrating his flexibility...
OH!!! and the 100m mike speaker! wif her beautiful sexual pictures...
she seems to be realli fasinated with it though i can't explain y...
erm... wad else i can't remember man! (post it in taggie box if you rem)
it was a nite class in a mess! reali wad a mess... haha!

Monday, July 17, 2006

it is kinda small...
due to sha2's gd idea...

If life can be like a bird...
always seeking for freedom...

If life can be like the mountains...
always at it's peak...

If life can be like a predator...
always the ultimate...

If life can be like trees...
always in the 'lime' light...

If life could be like a guardian angel...
always charmed to help others...

If life is like the sweetest honey...
Then quarrels will not break out...

if there are no Ifs in life...
then the word consequences will nv exist...
never think of Ifs in life...
coz there will bound to be mistakes...
we are not perfect...

sometimes birds can be preys...
mountain can create avalanches which can kill...
Predators are not gods so death will take them away...
Tress will reach it's stage where it cannot grow any taller...
Guardian angels are sth not quite true coz you are one yourself...
and the sweetest honey can go bad too...

a cup can be half empty and half full..
it all depends! you can be happy or sad...
it's all controlled by you...
you hold your own future...
you control your own life...
you are the guardian angel of your own life...
thus, make your life a meaningful one...

quote of today: *LiVe LiFe tO iT's FuLLeSt!*-cHaOx-

Friday, July 14, 2006

as promise...the story of an old lady whom i address s por por (granny in cantonese)

this por por has been in the nursing home for quite a no. of years oredy...
she's around the age of mid 80s...
she told us her onli son placed her in nursing home...
he promised tt he will visit her every week if possible but the frequency of visit became lesser n lesser till the stage when por por nv see him oredy...
up till this date, it's been 8 lonely years in nursing home...
she cried and told mi n hokkien:
"Everytime i see my neighbouring bed with visitors, i feel so lonely and sad..."
"i work so hard to bring up tis doctor son of mine, but i'm not appreciated!"
"it painful, to see the sides of my bed always empty, i think i'm just born with a hard life..."
"since the day my husband died, nobody has came to see mi, i miss tt old man! *sob sob*"

i became dumb...
w/o myself knowing, i had tears trickling down my cheeks...
and i cried....

i realli dunno how a nice sweet por por be dumped here by such a f*cking asshole doctor!B'u'stard lo! Provide you with such gd life... you enjoying your life with big $$! f*ck man!
i dun tink por por need $$ from you lo! if it's mi, i make sure i pluck out ur balls!

somehow i tink wad por por needs is jus a simple meal with her son...
tt could jus be the greatest moment in her life...
whenever i see grannies in the nursing home...
i get realli upset...
coz as a child, i din haf any sweet memories wif my granny (father's side)...
she tortured mi, pluck out my umblicus and make mi swallow tablets for no apparent reason...
crazy lunatic asshole!
complain to my parents about tings i din do...
make mi gt canning everyday but i realli din do it!!!
i had a poor childhood...
tt makes mi a 'mi' now...

so peeps out there...
if u nv suffer tis kinda stuffs in your life...
and your granny treats you well...
plz plz plz dun abandon them...
they haf a life!
and they haf the rights to enjoy their life...

Tribute to: my another nice sweet granny(mother's side) hu has passed away... you will still live...and you will still continue to exist in my heart... i promise it will nt fade till the day i die...

Ytd was a realli fun day...
right at the part when mi sha2 pj n maz went to causeway pt together...
we took neoprint...
but due to the size of the neoprint sha2 chose...
i couldn't post it coz it was realli realli too small to see anything...

In life there are always ups n downs...
but the quote of the day is: Nv let any1 affect your life...
of course it's hard as i've posted...
but nevertheless, TRY lah...
ytd while i was on my way hm, i bump in2 one of my prev bandmate...
she is oredy a s/n...it's like whoa! so fast! she say....
"after i became a s/n... my life is like so bz..."
"but after i got use to it... it's so nice a feeling to be able to help ppl"
suddenly it rung a bell...
it's weird i noe tt i keep tinking:"is nursing my choice?"
tis thought has been repeating n repeating but the ans nv came thru...
den ppl started sayin...
whoa nursing a noble job, it's an iron rice bowl n all sorts of nonsense...
but... the bottom line is...
wad the hell! i came into nursing basically because of
Lurve
Care
Concern
i wanna help them!!!
if everyone doesn't,
then, hu will?
sometime it's hard to explain...
but when i was wkin' (part time) in the nursing home...
the ppl there haf tonnes of story to tell...
and their story is realli realli sad...
i'll share in the nx post...
tt's makes mi realise...
if it's outta LCC, den go for it!
wad the hell... iron rice bowl, noble prize or wad shit i gt?
i dun gif a damn!

My motto definetely is: Be clean, Be truthful, Be kind, Be passionate and share you lurve...

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Sometimes writing about a boring life can be kinda fun too!
especially when your life is like...

0630hrs...
wake up early in the morning...
receive ur bestest fren's sms tt she'll b l8...
0800hrs...
attend HS2117 psychiatric nursing lecture...
my friends were like half dead...
[evidence]

and suprisingly, i stayed awake! tkns to pj's nonsence!
coz voilated my 'pai sei policy'
0900
drags on to Katheleen's class... zZz...
another surprising ting...pj oso nv pay attention to class coz she was like toking to mi!
and partly coz she's a real gd listener n i was 'confiding' to her abt sth...
1000hrs...
*phew* finally, brEak...
as you noe, my pals lurve the 'special' toilet... (tt's how we call it)
we hibernate inside for a while...
[evidence]


due to difficulties in taking the pictures, the hand muz go like tis...
haha!but the special toilet is realli realli clean!
[see!]
after smelling the toilet for a while,
you will try a few shots with the help of the mirror reflection...
1st shot:

2nd shot:
then we proceeded to wait for 2082's tuit... wa kaox! tt loo guy came after everyone was lyk tt...

and after a long day in sch taking pictures n attending lec/tuits...
gotta ride hm...haiz...

then i saw the new exercise corner near my hse...
but it didn't interest mi though...
so i went hz to haf tis 1hr warm bath...
and back to study...
but luckily, w/o sum1's presence, i still haf the bear he gave...
heehee... *blush,blush*

juz to share wif you guys the 'artist' impression of a blind... (drawn by mi)
i wanted to say i'm the nx vincent van gouh but... i dun wanna be a psychotic!

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

aLL about lurve is always kinda complicated...

Lurve is such...
it's selfish...
it's curious...
it's selfless...
but at the same time,
it's sweet...

lurve is a feeling tt is unable to be measured...
lurve is such tt it can't onli be experience by oen party...
lurve is such tt both party have to CONTRIBUTE, to actually BUILD the relationship...
lurve cannot be a such tt both COMPROMISE to maintain a relationship...
lurve haf to be cherish...
then, it'll be realli realli sweet...
if both compormise to maintain a relationship...
it's not lurve but juz plainly to be together...
you might be happie, but it's juz superficial...
it's hard to let a person go...
but at the same time, to get a betta guy to be in your heart...
tt's wad i suppose to be the best feeling tt one could eva experience...

i cherish 'you' and i hope 'you' cherish mi...
waiting is a pain n torture...
but to achieve wad you haf waited...
tt wad i call...
LURVE, CHERISH and SATISFACTION...
with tt, you would cherish the person more...
and be sensitive abt the slightest ting abt tt person...

to:___________
you noe hu you are...
i realli dunno y u r back wif him...
probably lurve (you haf)
but it's not lurve for him dear...
i hope you can tink more rationally...
abuse can lead to sth more dangerous n unpredictable...
plz plz dun torture yourself...
for your qualities, there will b others hu lurve you more...
when you can classify ur bf s a family...
you r on your way...
if no...
plz tink twice...

i see you falling asleep in class n stuffs...
you ctrling the situation...
yes... i agree a situation can be controlled...
but a person cant...
respect a person for hu he or she is...
but at the same time he or she has to respect you back...
if not...
two can be friends but not wad you expect...

Monday, July 10, 2006

Yeetung
fairy? *yuckx*

once, i accompanied my mum to the eat when i saw tis down syndrome child...
she was with her mother...
tt down syndrome child was realli sweet juz like wad ppl describe...
down syndrome child have realli great heart!

she ask her mum...
she: mummy, you have never told mi abt daddy b4...
mum: sry sweetie but it's hard for mi to accept and i'll not be telling you...
she: when will you tell mi then?
mum: when you grow older and able to understand more of tis evil world...
she: i'm old enuf mum! plz tell mi...

the nx min i saw tears rolling down her mum' eyes...
and she started...
mum: erm.. your dad din wan us... after i gave birth to you...
[she din even cried!]
she: mum, sometimes, i felt tt if it's so hard for ppl to accept mi even strangers... then, i guess, they will haf their retribution soon... it's not within our control but i guess onli god will control it...
mum: i married him but after i had you, he left, but mummy promise i'll not leave you...
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.
.
.
these continues... but i left... (not exact but it means the same)

after their conversation, i felt that there are so many unfortunate events tt harm ppl...
but i tink everyone should take it ez...
just like wad june say...
do not let any1 affect your life...
i noe it's hard but i oso noe...
if there's a will, there's a way...
i shall start with not letting ppl affect the way i live for long period of time...
den proceed... YEAH!!! all the best mainx!

Monday, July 03, 2006

somewhere in autumn lives this realli hyper gal...
(tt's mi) haha! haiz...
exams are ova but presentation piles...
den attachment cums,
den *poof* it's gone...
den everyone starts getting sick coz
EXAMS ARE HERE!
Then, *blink blink* holidays!!!!
after that, *snap* back to sch...
wad a boring life right?

some times you just need a fren...
a realli close fren hu is there to cheer you up...t
his is my childhood fren...she's realli pretty as compared to mi...
heehee...
nevertheless, we are still like so damn close...
whenever ppl ask, "hey, your cousin ar?"
den we will go... "no lo... my childhood fren"
the person hu ask will continue...
"ya ya i believe... so when did you noe her?"
we will go "since the youngest is born"
tt's when ppl will believe we are realli childhood fren!
Haiz... rite dinex? *wink*

these are just days which are realli ordinary,
some ppl's life is extraordinary!
now i'm gonna tell you a story abt a guy name Superboy...
before he became super boy, this was wad happened...

Yan is a realli normal child hu has no powers...
he find tt his life is realli miserable and lonely...
so bored and 'no life lo!'
one day, fairy godsister came...
*blink blink ting ting...*
Yan became... SUPERBOY!!!!!!
haha... accompanied with pictures de leh!!!