Thursday, March 06, 2008
mood rate: ***_ _
called her last nite after reading her post abt quitting...
i dun blame u.. or rather i wun blame u for giving up..
there's always a limit to wad a person can or cannot do..
and humans' heart on this aspect differs.
some ppl push on even it sux..
some juz lurve it n cont striving..
some realised halfway tt tt's not they wanted..
some dun even wanna acknowledge it...
n u r one of the 3rd..
i wun say u waste ur 3yrs to gain a diploma..
lyk some wud.. the 1st reaction is.. wa lao eh~ in the 1st place u shouldn't tk up wad..
but i guess ur ans wud be..
'it's not wad i've expected' *sighs*
it's definetely not wad i expected too...
clean shit everyday, turning sux, the smell sux, the routine is worse..
dreadful daily shift n routine i first tot..
but it's onli when i dun do it everyday den i realise i missed it...
but if u dun miss it.. den there's no point in pursuing it...
the 3yrs tt u haf lost is actually what u haf gained..
look at it in another angle..
u haf gain
lovely frens which u might not meet if u didn't tk tis course..
the fren whom u went thru thick n thin wif..
the frens whom u mug exams and bomb wa lao and omt with...
frens whom u laugh and cry wif many many stuffs...
frens whom u hate doing proj wif but they r a pair of hands which completed it too...
u scream u yell but at the end of the day u juz lurve ur frenx~
u gain 3 yrs of seeing the
vulnerability of life...
u watch ppl walking in and die few days later..
u watch mothers cry for their dying child..
u watch innocent lil ones die because of the young's ignorance...
u stay at beside pondering on wad haf the white haired done to accept those fate...
u pitied those hu r alive but couldn't respond...
u cried secretly because of professionalism...
u muz always appear u dun gif a damn..
..but actually ur heart scruntches when u haf to wrap up the dead.
u console weeping relatives but in ur heart u felt the same way...
u hate the fusy relatives and the noisy patients..
but at the end of the day they r there coz they needed help..
u haf gain the license of being an angel...
u posess the ability to heal wif words, action and touch...
trust mi.. u din lose anyting...
personally, i see no point in dragging urself to wake up at 5am to share some sleepy lurve...
spent ur wonderfully planned sunday afternoon smelling hibiscrub...
n keep ur red n tired eyes open to make sure tt ur patients r ok...
wads more impt is...
at the end of the day..
u look back and tot abt the decisions u haf made..
not regretting tt u quit nursing to pursue sth u realli dreamt of...
plus, u gain 3yrs of sight-seeing and u din cont to lose ur life to sth u hate~
**n u realli need a heart to heart tok wif 'paper swan'Labels: nursing