Sunday, June 29, 2008

mood rate: *****

boom!
i haf almost overcome the phobia of black horse..
it's been maybe 3? 4? days i haven seen her..
anyway..
i cant b bothered..
juz greet smile (although it's fake) n haf a betta life...


haix..

jeonah's last day...

phew~ gd luck girl..
all the best in ur future life..

staying is no life..
juz lyk wad prince charming say!


okie dox!
jalan kayu day...
the bryani is WHOO!!! awesome..
plus curry fish head? delicious..






few more days to slog my ass off for the upcoming NURSES DAY performance..
my name is written on the roster so big..

it's lyk:

germain----> 8 - 4 -----> TALENT QUEST..

wa lao.. it's a grp ting can!
a chiong rehearsal for tuesday..
a chiong props making on weds..
n a chiong last min practice on thurs..
n tadah! audition~


best of luck germain n the guys~

Friday, June 27, 2008

mood rate: *****

sister NF wif a new haircut!


check it out check it out..
there's a H.B.
wa lao eh...
she eat a lot of the patient biscuits sey!!!

OMT!!!

i cant concentrate now..
toking to ain.. seeyah...

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

OUTDATED PICS:

on the way for nihon mura..


tt's the diff btwn a fone cam n a digi cam...


BRO lurves ramen!


i lurve the cold one....


HEY tt's my blackcurrant drink! hymp!


tt potato salad sux!


GERMAIN is a survivor.. a winner!


nihon special... woohoo!!! muackx~ delicious..


the bill? $100 odd...

mood rate: *****

i woke up tis morning on an impulse to dye my hair..
which i din tel any1 except bro abt it..
n it's now BROWN...

let the pics speak~

this is before anyting was done to my hair..


got my ass down to the salon to pamper my HAIR..


see here..


n here.. one side so lil one side so much...


but the results?






i'm satisfied...

Monday, June 23, 2008

mood rate: ****_

my 3 nites were alrite..
great because of ppl whom i'm wif..
1st nite was familiarisation wif the sn wk..
Boo!!!! writing the ARMS is killing mi..
i see ppl writing lyk few lines some writes compo..
i write summary.. haha~

guess the most satisfying abt arms?
i gt to flaunt my handwriting.. MUHAHAHAHAH.. siaox...

1st nite:
havoc?
coz i onli managed to gt to slp for 1hr in the tea room..
wif a super small pillow n a super nt warm blanket...
but i gt great collegues hu switch off the lights n keep the noise lvl down for mi..
heehee.. germain is a small gal.. always pampered lah..
working wif her is eh-hmm.. TIRING!
'ding-dong' -> w8it-lah... l888-ter lah..
CTI OREDY LAH!!!
i top up the stuff for her..
she went to tk another batch n i was lyk..
"eh i top up oredy eh.. nvm the rest u dun keep ar.. top up for muhd"
she was lyk.. "ah.. okie.."

guess wad? she left the whole hunk of stuffs there..

n wad she does? FRIENDSTER..
i'm lyk so over friendster oredy lah..
even facebook i'm over wif it..

2nd nite:
crazy nite..
when i fnished my nite ppl tot i was AM shift..
heehee.. i gt to slp a hell lot so i was at "hyper-active state"
i gt high on green tea~ haha...

n i gt scared by muhd slping in the store room..
scare the hell outta mi lah..
stupid guy.. can laugh somemore..
u noe his laughter is a hell lot horrendous can! SCARY!


even when he's sitting oso cannot sit properly..
when i walked in from the tea rm..
i was lyk..
WTH! muhd no legs...

check out the shoes...

3rd nite was wif fiz..
it was strong team nite..
haha.. did all the sponging n toilet bath..
n noe wad?
when both of us were in the toilet,
the fire alarm went off..

mi: eh fiz.. fire eh.. i haven serve my hypertensive meds hz?
fiz: *)(*^@$#^&*(&@! lah... i go out n see u look after my pt..
so i stood there wif 2 pts half naked on commode...
fiz: i tink nothing lah..
mi: sure ma? okie ar.. go bathe..
- PA system-
fiz: SHHHH!!!!!!! (tells pt)
pt: -cont toking super loud-
us: SSSHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
us: aiya.. false alarm lah!

so the usual routine cont.
except for the merlion syndrome... haix..
n tt's under GS sumore... haix.. slpy oredy lah...


n tkns fiz for the bag..
i'll upload maybe tml when i haf the time..
s for now..





watching ROLLING LOVE..
nitex~

Sunday, June 22, 2008

mood rate: ****_

being away frm the horse gifs mi comfort..
it's lyk tonnes of boulder lifted off my shoulders...

i'm on nite wif sharon..
n muhd..
he's mad can..
he slpt in the store rm..
which scare the hell outta mi..
i tot some stupid dead body kena left there..
worse of all.. he TOK!!!

damn freaking scary....



more pics after my nite..
so nitex

Thursday, June 19, 2008

mood rate: ***_ _

hopefully the flower water works..
hopefully the praying is answered..
hopefully my patients stays fine..
hopefully i dun b so suay..

i went to wk wif a high feel..
juz to console myself tt everyting's gonna b alrite..
it's a brand new day..
n guess wtf?

i gt 5empty beds..
4admissions..
amongst it... 1 unrecordable BP..
BMU is a freak..

tel mi onli hypotension..
hype my shit ar!!! tel mi no drip nothing..
n in the freaking end?!
"i'm sending your pt *** up... she's on 100% NRM and dopamine"

Awww... no drip eh?! my asshole lah!




DUN WANNA SAY OREDY LAH! DAMN SUAY!!!
!@#$!#&%(&^@%&()(*#!($%!@)($#~!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

mood rate: **_ _ _

first ernies came up wif a chest pain..
den mr cheow wanted to do cpr for sis tan..
den i had msg frm ernies i had to go for hep B..

i was lyk.. i tot i oredy had 3 jabs?
n den they took my bldx..
for wad? chicken pox test.. lyk erm.. haix.. wadeva..
tt's the start of my bad day..

yea.. the fellow there say i damn brave..
haha..
coz amongst the guys hu went for jab were shouting away..
i stared at the needle n tok to the fellow...
is she a nurse? erm.. tink so...

n den wad?
N DEN>!!!!!!
i started shift wif a collapse case DIL (A)..
running around for stuffs...
den a transfer..
den a 15mins break..
den a non-stop hr of admission..

a bad day for germain?
5admissions... 1 GE 3NL 1 transfer..
among the NLs? HRLY CLC!!!!

i'm tired..
maybe it's 'germain needs a flower bath time'

Monday, June 16, 2008

mood rate: ***_ _

i shall nt spoil the freaking mood..
shall update real soon maybe tml?

pic-chas for now..
(@ song xiao's full mth baby's party!)
germain lurvex FOOD~

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

mood rate: ****_

i found a commonality..
the commonality amongst us..
i sagregated myself from others classifying me-self as a turtle..
i'm nt trying to b mean..
but i guess i found sumone worse den mi..

i'm still pissed at myself for nt being able to cope smoothly..
everyting is gg on so FAST..
n i'm crapping out..
freaking out..
n backing out..

bullshit! i'll nv BACKOUT..
no matter hz shit it is..
i guess all i haf to do is go for it..
n b brave..
i'm gonna pick up all the gd ass shit frm all..
n hopefully..
i'll b able to cope betta..
argh! damn freaked out...

weather nt gd wif tan todae..
NF weather was pretty gd though..
gt chicken in a biscuit n keropok todae.. heheeee~

s for tt idiot hu pushes everyting to studs..
fiz n i gonna teach her a lesson..
yea.. by letting her gt caught RED HANDED..
goodness.. damn blardy ass shit..
damn farked woman..
i din noe the role of EN is to attend to her FONE?
gosh.. n there's infection control oso..
coz a BLUE apron is involved.. yea~
dumbass.. fiz go teach her a lesson ar!
n i found out tt i'm nt the onli one..
bull hell shit..
i've gt a feeling i'm the tok of the town..
forgt it.. cant b bothered.. say wadeva u wan..

prince-o-logy is intact... wif a snip snip.. look so kuku.. gosh~

Monday, June 09, 2008

mood rate: ****_

HAHAHAHAHA!!!
i'm freaking mad!
coz todae is a day of prince-a-logy..
it might sound absurb to u..
but those hu noe wads gg on will understand ar!!!

i guess tt'll b ernies, ain, maybe poon or my sista..
it's been long since i last toked abt him to sista...
yea.. haven seen sista for a LONG LONG TIME..

anyways..
when he came on todae he said HI..
which is a big improvement coz he's so stuck up prev'...
AND DEN NOE WAD?!!!
i put up the day care form n he was impressed.. heehee~
i cheated lah.. zan helped mi wif tt.. boo***

n den n den!!!
i was photocopying the imr..
n n n n n N!!!!
mi: *praise myself* wa! so zhun (accurate) hmm...
him: *grins* (i realise he lyks to do tt)
mi: hz can u laugh at mi?
him: i nv.. i wanna order somemore ting eh..
mi: wad?
him: KCL
mi: nvm ar.. ward stock..
him: orh..
mi: eh nx time i grow old, jobless i can b photocopying auntie
him: *lol* goon lah..
mi: ya ma..
him: *whisper* eh i dunno hz to do use the photocopying machine leh..
mi: orh.. nx time i free den i teach u k?
him: *happie* OKAY!!!
mi: *damn freaking happie lah*
him: *came up to mi* eh.. but wads the password?
mi: LOL!!!! ***
him: chey!!! zan tinks i everytime come here photocopy lyk tt..
mi: haha.. dun say i tel u..


loads more..
but i cant say anymore..
PB STARTS!!!

Sunday, June 08, 2008

mood rate: ***_ _

sometimes,
i wish i haf the ability to keep everyting at peace..
i wish i could haf a gift to read people's mind..
i wish i can make everyone happie..
i wish i could please everyone..
i wish i could haf everyting gg my way..
i wish i wish wish..

i could onli wish those in my sleep..
in my dreams...

ytd was a roller coaster..
the last day since dunno when..
i've been working for 10days straight..
super tired..
i was a zombie by 5...

been realli a ride..
find myself working blindly..
i wish i could b smarter n could rem all the junk...
i wish i could do everyting at one go..
tt's how i wish...
i wish i could b flawless..
i wanna b so seasoned tt i couldn't b picked on anyting..
i'm a perfectionist..
but i'm nt there yet..
n i'm frustrated.. i'm pissed at myself for being picked on everyting..
if i could haf foresight and the time i would haf done it..
germain always need other's help..
wadeva i do would nv b enuf..
i dunno hz to please everyone..

argh! it's freaking stressful..
3.50 concealer to cover my eyebags, zits...
mascara to open up the sleepy eyes..
eyeliner to define the eyes..
lipgloss to brighten up everyting tt looked stale..

upcoming JCIs..
FTT unstudied.. postpone postponed till dunno when..
i feel tt my collegues will hate mi for passing crap..
i felt i'm nt gd enuf to b confirmed..
i felt parts of the original mi dissolving in my blood..
i felt tt my report sux n i still cant rem all my pts..
how much time do i haf left..

i'm being pushed v hard..
from orientation to UBO to trendcare to iv course...
n there pops up this bladder scan n in future AED..
sumtimes i juz wished i'm philips..
taking tings slow n ez..
i haven completed my checklist n there's 3more..

had juz been assessed by sister NF on iv bolus..
which i gt scolded coz i din tel her tt i pass the theory..
which i assumed tt she noes..

the ting is..
if germain doesn't ask NF to assess she gts scolding..
when she ask for assessment..
she gts it too..
den wth?!
i wish i wish i wish i could dissapear for a while..

*kaboom*
i'm still here...


ernies:
i noe i'm nt quite in a position to tel u all these..
since i'm gg thru it s well..
but no matter wad she says..
b strong..
nv cry n allow her truimp..
juz ignore the fark hell outta her..
juz b coz she's someone more senior den u doesn't mean she has the right to tok cock...
if anyting happens..
juz stand up for ur own rights..
at least u noe u tried..
i believe in u..
so u believe in urself..
eat happie food n slp well..
fark care ar.. lifes too short to tink too much..
juz take it day by day..
which is wad i'm doing..

Thursday, June 05, 2008

mood rate: ****_

i dunno hz to classify my mood for todae..
it's a mixed..

last nite was madness..
after nihon mura..
i was rushing home to gt the iv stuffs into my head..
n guess wad happened?
yea...











i fell aslp...
nothing surprising wad~


since i'm so drained..
studying the JCI stuffs..

den here comes todae...
woke up early in the morning panicking...
for wad?
the iv test ar!!!

wads worse..
shikin was scarying the hell outta mi..
coz it's juz lyk BTT..
i can onli afford a 8 wrongs..

germain made it..
i scrapped thru after a 10mins reading thru of ain's paper..
i guess icu ppl's paper is the best lah...
i gt 6wrongs..
haha.. I MADE IT!!!
i cant believe wad i went thru..
goodness..


after the practical we were sharing wif sister from cdc abt the GW..
tt sister was shocked abt the 0001 0002 0003 0004 0005- 0008..
the corridor beds..
it's lyk a freaking refugee camp..
n the pts r lying on trollies..
goodness.. so ugly can.. argh!
n tt oso means.. INCREASE WKLOAD!!!

NURSES R CLEARLY OVERLOADED!!!!!!!!!!

gtg early..
slacked at the tea room listening to boo's story..
funny weirdo.. haha~

went out slacking at bugis wif kavi poon n ain..
haha..
speaking of which..
the germain ain hand tingy?
ah peck was clearly impressed wif the u noe.. (mo qi)
we're juz too gd to b true..
haha~ siaox!

the usual hangout.. KFC...
bought myself a watch..
ain gt her sis a top..
still considering the dress for stef's ROM...
haiya.. $24 onli..






btw:
poon...
tk care while in china..
tings r tough..
sights r rough..
lurvex~~~~~

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

mood rate: ***_ _

heehee.. prince toked to mi..
maybe i'm tinking too much..
but i dun care..
coz it's been such a hard time tt maybe i should destress..
even though it's juz plain flirting..
but wadeva ar.. his probx lah~

had UBO...
n ernies was LATE~


i can realli tell she was stressed trying to tie her hair ar..
but darling~
the UBO starts at 9.30 hahahaha~
u will nv guess wad a relief she was in..

n guess wads the reason she was l8?
she was squeezed in a train tt is faulty..
dragging it's way to novena..
n she was squeezed by a person's big round butt..
tt was her description..
n i was squeezed by soembody's breasts..
argh! i felt so molested lah! goodness gracious~

after tt...
ernies was so into her psp..
check tis nonsense video out...


too much of time..
TK PICS...
this ayu.. disturb onli..
check out her J-Lo butt in the background...


n tadah!
this is ONE-ZERO from 9c..
they TKL hu always ps ah peck..
poor gal.. dun gif in to her can.. irritating~


finally 9.30am!!!
mr chao was in!!!
n it was party time!!

c!!! TKL oso enjoying!
gt coke zero, pepsi light..... all black gas-sie drinks...


i was pretty bored the whole renal tok..
so i was merely singing all the way..
i even wrote a long chinese lyrics..
coz english is simply no kick...

guess wad?

ah peck was doing correction for mi.. haha~
n ernies chinese sux too..
but yea.. mine is worse..
after tt.. i was too tired..
n i notice sth common in the triplets..

SAME COLOURED FONE!!!


tings gt realli sleepy after lunch..
so i decided to toot-tify myself wif ernies' specs...

pose1:


pose2:


pose3:


PICTURES at JAP VILLAGE:

the sushi:


argh~ constricted space...


look at the amt of food!!!


hungry germain!


ernies lurve sashimi...


the absoutely wrong choice...

poor gal..
but i helped u to eat rem?

my nihon special... whoa rite?!


there comes ah peck's... nicey!!!
strawberry waffles~ whoa...


check tis out..
noe wads wrong?
see a mushroom?












that's not...








it's my ichigo wif chocolate..
but nt nice lah.. spoil the taste..


















check out the lips... similar? heehee~

Tuesday, June 03, 2008

mood rate: *_ _ _ _

it's juz lyk deaths...
one after another.. n another, another and more..
it nv seem to end.. 3, 6, 8... (9)? ....?
n i felt lyk it will end soon but it never realli happened...

orientation was cocky..
tings gt worse..
the usual mi was outta the zone..
the hatred comes into the picture..
it wasn't meant to b tis way.. but it juz did...

many tings happened..
it lyk a burn tt tripled the layer in a week..
n it landed right at the bones..
nw... i'm immuned to the env.
proliferation?
maybe more harm took place even before it started to heal...
but it's no longer me anymore..
i juz couldn't acknowledge ppl...
i forced a smile to make tings better..
sometimes i wish tt i could break down n cry my heart out..
so tt i'll feel better.. (movies always shows tt?)
but the metallic heart has refused to breakdown..

so i guess the onli way is to push n perserve?
but i'm tired..
even a million hrs of slp couldn't cure...

i finally told my bro abt it..
from day 1 till todae...
- the slping incident which din even occur in the first place..
- the feedback which backfired
- the pointing n scolding which was unreasonable
- the lucky pick on mi EVERYTIME
- the nonsense frm NF
- the family update
- the lazies n mi being bullied
- the safe mattress
- the JCIs
- the IVM
- FTT
- the checklist

i felt my bld draining from mi slowly...
i could almost feel myself gt creamated..
i'm helpless..
all i could do is blurt it out to darling ain..
i'm sry tt it has affected u tt u actually teared..
i'm touched but stoned..
i'm a statue gg for creamation..
i can nv feel lyk before..

germain come back!
i miss myself..
i miss the times when home weren't a hotel...
work was enjoyable n satisfying..
gossips were a form of leisure..
cosmetics lived a common ground..
n music was the way of life.. rather MY life..

now..
vulgarities were lyk nursery rhymes..
furious had the same meaning to jovial...
music became a hypnosis...
n home has became a hideout...

till this moment..
the probx still stays...
lyk a rubic cube without a matching colour...
a song without music...
a pc without a monitor..

wads worse?
it's a book with no words...
n a lock with no key...

extended tkns to:
-> bro for the happie food todae.. (ice cream float)
-> ain for the listening ear n happie fast food
-> gen for the call frm aussie (appreciated)

TMTH, CTI...
chaox~

mood rate: *_ _ _ _

i'm pretty sedated in this cold freaking room...
doing e learning...
zZz...

Monday, June 02, 2008

mood rate: ****_

i was dumbfounded...
it caught mi tinking n reflecting abt myself..
since somebody whom i tot was appreciative said our super clerk updates better den mi..
yea yea..
my updating sux coz i was doing junior tt day..
n of course i din noe my pts condition n plan..
nevertheless i made an attempt..
n i was laughed at.. wadeva..
it's getting in my bld but i cant do anyting to her..
i could juz stare n reflect n do sth to improve myself...

todae surprisingly, sister tan was crazyly mad!
i dunno wads gg on..
she was all the way lyk she has swallowed a giantic volcano..
n NF was hopping mad..
n i dun understand wads gg on wif her n the students..
i bet she has a terrible prob wif studs..
n i know hz it feels since iwas part of being stud b4...

i cant realli b bothered wif these anymore..
from now on!!!
GERMAIN IS GONNA FORGT AT WK ONCE I LEAVE TTSH GROUND...
I'M NOT GG TO TINK ABT STUPID REPORTS N STUPID COMMENTS..
I'M NT GONNA TINK ABT WAD I'VE SAID TO RELATIVES..
tt's IT!

i was confused wif the phils..
they're lyk coming at the wrong time n claiming tt they came on time..
den they will scoot off sharp..
n they tok n tok tok tok tok n den they disappear..
n it realli dirves mi mad.. but i cant b bothered..
eventually i left wif ernies at 5.30 after doing h/c for the whole ward..
haha~

diverted my attention to the drs..
okie.. since it the HOs last day..
i'm gonna feature them todae!

david:
david is madly in love wif his job ar!
he always stays tt super l8..
n he's super bothered but he cant help it..
he's post call usually ends at????? 5pm! haha~
david tinks i'm mad.. n i tink he is mad...
anyway i'll still see him in lvl 9.. coz he gg off to 9c!
so gd luck ah peck!
the main pt is!!!
post call.. he'll change in nurses toilet..
n guess wad?
he'll pack his clothes in the white plastic bag..
the one patient use to pack diapers when gg to nursing home..
he uses tt bag..
n tadah! ah peck says:"wa lao.. david damn budget ar!!!"

until now i still cant gt over the plastic bag can?!
i even ask him..
he cannot b bothered wif mi.. haha
he say nvm lah~~~~ hahah.. damn funny...

zhen li:
zhen li damn auntie can..
everytime wear the baju lyk so ahem~~~
i dunno hz to describe..
i onli can say she's pretty hardworking..
n her fav line :" i'll discuss wif the team"

will miss those guys..
the MOs still lurking around..

-> ernies!!!
i still cannot tk it lah!!!
polo tee wif nonsense bag pack!!
look lyk philip eh!!!!!

Sunday, June 01, 2008

mood rate: ****_

it's oredy the 2nd pay check..
n i still can believe i'm a staff nurse..
i cant believe tt i'm actually realli on job..
i cant accept myself updating pts relatives..
i cant understand the comfort in following the drs rounds..
i couldn't believe i could juz pick up the fone to call the dr lyk they're my frenx..
it's all weird...

n i'm having collegues instead of frenx..
they might b my frenx too! but u see.. it's a realistic world...

i'm beginning to see my mates lesser n lesser..
i spend my life cooping in my pink blankie n bedsheets..
i spend more $$ on food den eva since i'm pretty much deprived of those during wk..
i'm always rushing for time n it doesn't seem to stop..
i'm trying to calm myself down coz i'll start mumbling to myself if i go mad abt wk..
i see my parents lesser n even though i see, i do nt haf time for them..
i felt bad tt home has became a hotel...
i even bathe in the hosp...
i spend 8hrs in the hosp n 3hrs on public transport..
the rest of the time i donate some to online shopping n blogging and the rest to my bed..
n the 3hrs on public transport.. i spend all of it on my story book..
sometimes my story book gts deprived too..

everyting abt mi now is..
is this pt okie?
y so suay? muz bathe flower water nt?
hrly do oredy nt?
huh? todae so many mc ar?
CLC due wad time ar?
report write oredy nt?
h/c do oredy nt?
where's my case sheet?
omg! pass report to 'her' ar?
bld results normal nt?
hu is gonna send y pt for procedure?
y so long dr still dun wanna come ar?
anyting i miss out a nt?
JCI study oredy nt?

aiya.. forgt it lah! germain is too overloaded..
it's called.. WORK HAZARD..

i'm oredy getting tired tinkG abt these Qs..

p.s: CP is staying~